The Awakening!

For a long time I have been hesitant to make my own blog. Richie has been bugging me to do it but I always said I'll think about it and then brush off the topic. I have been hesitant not because I'm worried I might not have time to manage it (as you may already know I have tons of careers like dishwasher, lavender (Labandera hahahahaha!) I mean doing laundry, a trying - (very) hard chef, and a freelance writer. I have been hesitant because I was too worried that I would not be a good mommy blogger to follow. I'm scared to be shot down by readers (if any) and unintentionally exposing all the boo boos and errors I might be making as a first time mom. Or even as simple as spelling or grammatical error, or people not enjoying the way I write. For a person who firmly believes in The Secret philosophy,  deep inside I have negative thoughts when it comes to myself. Yes, I have self confidence issues. There, I said it.

But just a few minutes ago as I was about to start some freelance work, I was side-tracked by Facebook and before I knew it I was browsing through some of the Mommy blogs. One blog lead to another and soon I ended up in http://mommyfleur.com/. The recent post on the site woke me up. It was like a tsinelas (slippers) that thumped me in the head really hard. It's called "Things I'm Afraid to Tell You". 

She goes on to saying that a lot of people compliment her through her blog but the truth is she's not a perfect mother. She goes on to listing situations that I find all too familiar (chaotic house, not knowing anything about household, etc) And so I thought to myself, why am I so afraid of putting myself out there? This woman is so bold and straight forward. Her honestly makes her blog a good read. It has a lot of personality! And it's really a relief for me to know that I'm not the only mother who doesn't know what the hell she's doing. After all, motherhood is a lifetime learning process. The learning curves are never ending. Like what Richie says, it's MY blog. I can write whatever the hell I want with it. (Thanks hun! Love you!) 

After reading Mommy Fleur's post, I came to an awakening that I'm not writing to please anyone, or to show the world that I'm trying to be a perfect mom. I can never be the Pinay Martha Stewart, most especially an Asian Nigella Lawson. I should just be the imperfect little me! It's these little errors, failed attempts that will make me be a stronger mom. Not perfect, but stronger :-) Thanks Mommy Fleur! You rock! :-)